The Clears

Wanting… Desire… It’s all slipped away… just a smooth, blank surface in my mind where it used to be…

So smooth…

So blank…

1. When I came to, I was itchy and an man with an Eastern European accent was handing me some metal disks. I told him I didn’t want them and left the building.
2. Things coming back to me in fragments, which was disorientating at first.
3. I was surprised to recognise myself in the reflection of a window. That’s strange isn’t it?
4. The eye clamps.
5. A period of insistent questioning; “Why do you want it?”, “This particular one?”
6. Laughing; lots of.
7. Crying; lots of.
8. A sense of panic and fear.
9. A sense of relief.
10. Clarity.
11. Empty space.
12. Coming to.
13. Here. Now.